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Wednesday, May 1, 2013

IWSG: Insecurity Times Ten

 
Good Morning Everyone. If you are not familiar with the IWSG, go to http://alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.com to find out more.
 


I'm drowning in my insecurities this month so I'm afraid this IWSG post is going to be pretty depressing friends. My revisions on my WIP have not been going well, at all. No matter what I do I can't seem to find the right direction I want to go in anymore. I used to love my characters so much! I used to have so much enthusiasm for this manuscript, once. But now I kind of hate it. I don't think my pacing or plot have the ability to pull someone into my story. And it's killing me. I want to scream! I want to throw things! My WIP has become no fun to work on. The insecure writer in me is thinking it's time to throw in the towel and give up. I honestly feel like I have no right to even call myself a writer anymore. Who am I kidding? Maybe, I have been fooling myself this whole time, thinking I ever could be? Will this doubt and insecurity always plague me because I am the type of person who is really hard on herself or is it because I really, truly suck? Is moving on to another project the answer? Or will I finish that and find myself right back in this spot, hating it just as much in the end? I really don't know what I should do. I'm stuck in this heart-breaking spot, not really knowing which way to turn.

22 comments:

  1. If you're stuck, let someone help you. Find a writer you trust to look over what you have so far and maybe that person can offer suggestions that will help you become unstuck. I bounce things off my test readers and critique partners all the time and it really helps.

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  2. You do not suck. You have just hit the point that every writer hits, where you hate your writing, hate your story, hate your characters. It's just self-doubt. You have an amazing voice! If this one is driving you crazy, I say move on to another and come back to this one when you can look at it with fresh eyes. Also, send me the rest of it! Grrr!

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  3. This is normal. It happens to me all the time. You may just need a break. Then come back and read through it and I bet you'll fall in love with it again.

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  4. Take a break, go to the beach, have a margarita. Do anything but DO NOT give up. You just came through the 'writer by fire' A to Z Challenge, of course your feeling a little tapped out. Don't let it get you down. This may sound crazy but I like to read or critique the work of others (that is NOT a cheap ploy). This generally helps me to see some of my own flaws and ways to make my writing better. Maybe you need a 'spa day'.

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  5. Been there...doing that. No, you don't suck. I love to read your blog, and quite frankly grabbing a busy bloggers attention is just as hard as producing 75,000 words in a book.

    When I feel like you do, I walk away for a bit. Maybe work on something else...sometimes I just scrub a toilet. Once your brain starts working against you, step back and regroup. It's not you that sucks...it's what your brain is saying to your psyche that sucks.

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  6. I'd like to echo what the others above have already said. Whenever I hit the point in a WIP that you're at now, I take a break from it. Once I took the entire summer off from writing and when I went back to it in the fall, everything was much clearer.

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  7. Boy are we ever on the same page...you were absolutely right. Like you, I'm sorry I don't have any advice to give other than you're awesome and you'll figure it out! :)

    Best of luck!

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  8. This has happened to me countless times. Put it away and work on something else for a while. You'll see it with fresh eyes and if the characters start shouting at you again in the meantime, you'll know it's time to go back to it. It may be that you decide it won't ever be finished, but never mind because all the writing you did on it was good practise. Go with the flow. Good luck.

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  9. I think this is just another step in the process. I'm not sure what you're working on, but the little bit of story you shared a few weeks back was great. Sometimes just stepping away from your work for a week or so and doing other things, reading working on something new, then come back with fresh eyes.

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  10. I think we all get to that point! Often I try to take a break and write a short story or something that will get me back on the path of feeling confident about my writing again.

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  11. Don't give up you are a writer. We all feel like this sometimes, posted something similar myself so totally understand what you are saying. I think most advice suggests stepping back from the WIP, maybe work on something different for a while and see if that helps. Good luck you can do it :)

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  12. I think you are a writer, although I'm judging only from what I read in your blog. I think you're in the deepest hole writers sometimes visit but do not stay for long. I agree with Alex that it would help if you could give your writing to someone you trust and see what they have to say. I also agree it helps to get out of that stalled feeling. Another option is to let it rest for a while and work on something else. Clear your mind and take a breath. Then come back at it with a different attitude. It works for me.

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  13. We are definitely our own worse critics.

    That first pass, the honeymoon stage of writing a story is fun. Even some revision can be. Hey, after reading the MS for the umpteenth time even a great story gets old and nothing sounds right.

    I tend to put it away for a few weeks and concentrate on other things--writing other things, reading, let some of my other creative parts come out and play (it's also amazing that my brain goes on working the MS while I'm playing). When I come back to it I see it with different eyes. I can even laugh again at the funny parts, feel my emotions kick in over another passage, even say, wow! I wrote that? That's good. Sometimes your mind, which has been working on the MS even tho you haven't, kicks in and goes--oh. No, no, no, it needs to go this way. or Duh, of course she wouldn't do that. What was I thinking. What I'm saying is a path opens up. Might have even been there before but you were too discouraged or tired of the MS to register the fix.

    To be honest, I don't know any author who doesn't hit that, "I hate this MS. I totally suck!" phase.

    Don't give up. Go play somewhere and have fun.

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  14. Whenever I feel like that, I take a break. Maybe write a couple of short stories, go mad in a different genre... then come back to the MS. Sometimes the answer is staring you in the face. Getting someone you trust to read it should help too. If they're reading while you're writing something else, it won't just be hanging around and you won't feel you're wasting your time. Good luck with it.

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  15. You're not alone, since I feel like this all the time, too. Even now, there's a WIP I think I "broke" and that will never be salvageable. Definitely a frustrating feeling! As hard as it may be for you to believe, you don't suck! Self-doubt is simply a cruel little bugger that we all just need to ride out and, hopefully, overcome...

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  16. I can tell you just from the times I've visited you here, you are an awesome writer. Don't give up faith in yourself. Perhaps it's time to walk away for just a bit, not long, just a breather. Get some sun, see the pretty flowers that are coming into bloom and find your inspiration again. Then, pick it back up again with fresh eyes. I bet you'll do wonders!!! Hugs.

    IWSG
    Elsie

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  17. Sorry you're stuck but just keep going.

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  18. Lots of good advice offered here. Extra eyes. Extra time. But also remember what it was that made you want to tell this story. Don't let impetus get lost in endless edits and revisions.

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  19. Hey J,

    Put it away for a little while. All of what you're describing happened to me with my first novel. I loved it then hated it. But, if you're supposed to write that story, it'll plague you after you take a break, and you'll have to pull it back out. The excitement will come back! If it doesn't, move on, but I guarantee it will. If I'd given up, my story wouldn't be about to print. Sending up prayers for you lady. I know how hard this stuff is on the heart. :)

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  20. I think every manuscript goes through this stage. I recommend a break from it. Try writing something else, something entirely different, or just take a break from writing. A break doesn't mean giving up.

    Lynda R Young
    IWSG co-host

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  21. If you don't love it, that'll come across in the writing. Take a small break from it, then come back when you're refreshed. It works wonders. Really.

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  22. You don't suck. Period. Every writer has those moments where they feel that no one will like what they have written. Just give yourself time and you'll get there.

    www.modernworld4.blogspot.com

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