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I'm drowning in my insecurities this month so I'm afraid this IWSG post is going to be pretty depressing friends. My revisions on my WIP have not been going well, at all. No matter what I do I can't seem to find the right direction I want to go in anymore. I used to love my characters so much! I used to have so much enthusiasm for this manuscript, once. But now I kind of hate it. I don't think my pacing or plot have the ability to pull someone into my story. And it's killing me. I want to scream! I want to throw things! My WIP has become no fun to work on. The insecure writer in me is thinking it's time to throw in the towel and give up. I honestly feel like I have no right to even call myself a writer anymore. Who am I kidding? Maybe, I have been fooling myself this whole time, thinking I ever could be? Will this doubt and insecurity always plague me because I am the type of person who is really hard on herself or is it because I really, truly suck? Is moving on to another project the answer? Or will I finish that and find myself right back in this spot, hating it just as much in the end? I really don't know what I should do. I'm stuck in this heart-breaking spot, not really knowing which way to turn.