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Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Insecure Writer's Support Group, Episode I
Erm, this is my first installment for the IWSG. Ironically, I was too insecure to add my name to the ole Linky List when I initially started blogging and came across this group. I decided it would be fitting to explain my reluctance to jump in and add my voice to the IWSG as the subject of this post. So here it is: I suffer from some serious insecurities when it comes to sharing my work and didn't think I had anything of value to offer to anyone else.
I get so super nervous when I have to share something, I come seriously close to throwing up every time I enter any blog hops or contests. I'm so full of anxiety my mouth starts watering and my body breaks out in a cold sweat when I just think about entering! I am always second guessing myself. I write, then re-write. I edit and edit, completely convinced everything I've written my entire life is pure crap. And sometimes, sometimes I can get all squirrely just trying to form and drop a coherent comment on someone's blog! Ridiculous, right?
But here's the thing that really blows my mind- if you and I were to meet in a social setting, NEVER in a million years would you guess I suffer from such debilitating insecurity!! Putting aside the fact that you always hear me, long before you see me, I'm always smiling, laughing and jacking around. I'm extremely friendly and absolutely adore meeting new people. I can (and will) introduce myself and strike up conversations with total strangers, with zero fear or any anxiety, at all. My friends and family would laugh their butts off if they knew I'm claiming to be really shy and insecure. But when it comes to writing, it's absolutely the truth! So what gives? What the heck is wrong with me? Why am I so insecure when it comes to my writing?
Writing is my medium. It is the art form in which I chose to express myself. It is a huge part of who I am. When I write, it's my deepest, darkest, inner most thoughts swirling around inside my soul, thrown outside myself, for all to see. And that's a much tougher thing for me to share than a smile and a laugh. I'm not entirely certain if it will ever be easy for me to share my work. I'm really hoping some day, it will be. For now, I'm taking baby steps. One thing at a time. At least I finally got up enough courage to join the IWSG!
Have any of you ever suffered from the same insecurity about sharing your work? What was the first thing you ever shared? How was your work received? Did how your work get received, change your feelings about what you wrote? (Did that sentence even make any sense? And there you go, I'm doing it again...)